Jesus Sits With Me
I’m ending this year at one of my favourite places on earth. My parents cottage. It’s cold and dark and dreary but still beautiful.
2018 has been the same way. Highs like writing my second book, lows like getting diagnosed with bipolar. But always beautiful.
I took the last six weeks or so to just be quiet. To pray and not just speak but sit in silence with God. To read just for the sake of communion, not for writing. To be quiet on social media and just observe.
I’ve made several decisions in this quiet time and done quite a bit of private writing. But I want to tell you the one phrase that has come up for me more than any other.
Jesus sits with me.
That’s all. No guarantee of light or happy. No guarantee that the darkness will not seep into my mind. Just the promise that no matter what, Jesus sits with me.
So now I look ahead to 2019. I don’t know what it will bring.
But I know who sits beside me.
I’ll leave you with the words to a song I finished tonight.
Feeling tossed about
Outside the storm is raging
Sitting in the dark
And now my heart is racing
Dark waters rising
My future is so unclear
I want to fly but
Fear keeps me sitting here
Only this one things is sure
Hope keeps me secure
The dark might be all I see
But Jesus sits with me
Fear had gripped my heart
I had no desire to leave
Jesus called me out
Said only to Him to cleave
He reached out His hand
Vowed I’d never be alone
Still in the darkness
I stepped out in the unknown
Only this one thing is sure
Hope keeps me secure
The dark might be all I see
But Jesus walks with me
Mountains and valleys
Through failures, vict’ry, and loss
Jesus walked with me
In the shadow of the cross
Now I know the truth
No matter what comes my way
Jesus is with me
Every minute, every day
Only this one thing is sure
Hope keeps me secure
The dark might be all I see
But Jesus is with me